So Seriously those who read me regularly ( I now know there is more then 2 there are threee...I have a lurking anynomous who seems pleasant enough and very polite) know I am normally pretty upbeat or even fiesty at times. I like to have a moan about the things that send me round the bend and back ( like the shitty drivers over here in Canada ...damn the gets my goat) and I do try to keep it light and entertaining most times.
But I also believe that the purpose behind a blog is to be able to let out what is wrong, what angers you and what hurts you. It is for a person the vent and rage.
I want to vent and rage!! I have not let a boy get under my skin as much as him and the strange thing is I have no idea why I have let it do this??
I have managed to stop the random feelings of dispair but have replaced them with doubting thoughts of " di it really happen??" or " OMG what the fuck did I go and do that for" or thoughts of " will he come back ..SOON ?"
I also know that this will pass as everything else in life does. So this thought is what keeps me from turning into a crazy single late 20 something pining for something that will like never come to fruition.
Poor Thunder the horse is taking a battering as the only thing that seems to completely clear and void my head of any thoughts is going out for stupidly long rides with Thunder. Due to the fact that I have to put every thought into the horse when riding him it means no other thoughts seem to invade the empty places in my mind.
So yes I am a self pity fool right now. Yes I feel deeply sorry for myself and well in a odd sort of way what I lost a week ago. Put again " this to will pass"
Friday, August 24, 2007
Falling in Love with Riding Again ...And Possibly using It as A Replacement Too
So I have completely fallen in love with a passion I have had for years. I have ridden horses since the age of about 5 or so. I used to be really good. I showed regularly and was generally quite fearless...bordering stupid fearlessness lol
By stupid I mean I would push the limits of my abilities sometimes to not so good consquences lol. I have had great horses through out my life and ridden other peoples stunning monsters as well. My first show pony was Miss Piggy...her name suited her completely! She was the apple of my eye solely because she once threw my little sister off...straight into a rose bush, in my eyes she rocked from that day forth. I then had my first full time fully grown horse. Her name was morningside or Gladys for short ( no idea why lol ) anyway she wasa pig I mean seriously that horse looked pregnent every single day of her life. She had no mane as she rubbed it off and a short scraggly tail. She could jum p like no other horse I have ever owned. She LOVED to jump.
She was eventually sold due to me getting taller.
I am now riding Thunder. Thunder has made me fall in love with riding again. He is part clyde part percheron and maybe friesan no one is really sure. When I first started riding him for his owner he was a barrel a over grown barrel. So barrel like that I could only ride him 15 mins at a time as my hips would be in sheer agony! He knew noting about leg commands, nothing about voice commands nothing above a lumbering walk. Fast forward to today and 3 months later, he is a STUNNER, he has gone from the human version of a size 24 to a size 14. He answers beautifully to leg commands and voice. He is full of energy he never had before. He is like riding a giant charger ( he is a giant to be fair) . I adore nothing more now then going home after work and gym, saddling him up and vansihing down the roads and fields for hours at a time.
He has helped distract me from all the drama I have had for the last month in regards to broken heart. He listens when I natter away at him. He of course does not answer me back people ...I am not that crazy..only mildly off kilter.
I would really love to buy Thunder off his owner eventually, and I think he may sell him as seriously he has no idea how to handle him.
So Thunder has been my saving grace the last few weeks and my entertainment for the last 3 months. I look forward to starting lessons in dressage with him taught by Aron. I think he has serious potential once all the weight melts off him.
So thank you Thunder for being one hell of a beast to have fun with ..you rock !
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Best friends, Close Friends and Acquaintances
You know I like to keep my friends close to me. But also I like to havea small friend base. This is solely for the reason that I can then spend and give more attention to the people that mean the most to me.
There are a few that will always stand out heads and shoulders above the rest by a million miles.
Firstly there is Mason which you have all heard about. Mason is one of the few people that I truly let my gaurd down with and well let it out. He also is the one person who can wind me up to no end and knows exactly what button to push to get that hieghtened reaction out of. God he is good at that lol
Amanda was one of my closest friends in the UK. She can make me giggle like no one !! Seriously she does not even need to speak she just needs to look at me and I am in fits. She was there with me through bad break ups with boyfriends. She was there when I was homesick and so fed up. The girl is down to earth and just rocks.
Last but not least Aron. I have known Aron since the age of 3. Yes 3!! We used to rule the monkey bars at Blueberry community hall. We were thick and fast friends. We went through Elementry to High School together. She was popular but never ever rude or discerning upon who she was friends with and I was quiet slightly picked on and really did not mix with school people. We shared and share a strong common bond of a love of horses, the magnificent beasts they are. I actually rode Arons old horse before she bought him ( that horse rocked my world) We drifted apart. She got married ( then divorced) I left the country and tried to find out who I was. 10 years later we got back in touch and you know it was like it had only been 10 hours since we had last spoken. I deeply regret not being here as a friend when she went through rough times such a big regret on that. Aron is one of the few people that can throw a compliment my way and I know it is truly from the heart and genuine! She is one of the most stunning women I know in the world yet she is NEVER big headed about it and I love her for that. She is by far one of the best horsewomen I have ever come across and I am envious ( not in a bad way ) of that. But most of all she is a true and beautiful friend
She has these great quotes on her facebook so thought I would write down my 2 favs of hers
" Turn your face to the sun and let the shadows fall behind you"
" Remember there are oceans between us......but thats not very far"
There are a few that will always stand out heads and shoulders above the rest by a million miles.
Firstly there is Mason which you have all heard about. Mason is one of the few people that I truly let my gaurd down with and well let it out. He also is the one person who can wind me up to no end and knows exactly what button to push to get that hieghtened reaction out of. God he is good at that lol
Amanda was one of my closest friends in the UK. She can make me giggle like no one !! Seriously she does not even need to speak she just needs to look at me and I am in fits. She was there with me through bad break ups with boyfriends. She was there when I was homesick and so fed up. The girl is down to earth and just rocks.
Last but not least Aron. I have known Aron since the age of 3. Yes 3!! We used to rule the monkey bars at Blueberry community hall. We were thick and fast friends. We went through Elementry to High School together. She was popular but never ever rude or discerning upon who she was friends with and I was quiet slightly picked on and really did not mix with school people. We shared and share a strong common bond of a love of horses, the magnificent beasts they are. I actually rode Arons old horse before she bought him ( that horse rocked my world) We drifted apart. She got married ( then divorced) I left the country and tried to find out who I was. 10 years later we got back in touch and you know it was like it had only been 10 hours since we had last spoken. I deeply regret not being here as a friend when she went through rough times such a big regret on that. Aron is one of the few people that can throw a compliment my way and I know it is truly from the heart and genuine! She is one of the most stunning women I know in the world yet she is NEVER big headed about it and I love her for that. She is by far one of the best horsewomen I have ever come across and I am envious ( not in a bad way ) of that. But most of all she is a true and beautiful friend
She has these great quotes on her facebook so thought I would write down my 2 favs of hers
" Turn your face to the sun and let the shadows fall behind you"
" Remember there are oceans between us......but thats not very far"
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
Rant,Affairs of the Heart, Music and General Babble Really
So no I am not a complete depressive the old me is still here and I am here to make you laugh.
Well at least chuckle out loud ok.
So first a babble:
Best ever Funny Moment of Trip to Saltspring:
Picture this Three grown boys sitting in a Sauna. They have just taken a naked dive at 2 in the morning in the ocean...needless to say they are cold hence the sauna. There is a lot of booze involved and pot. Boys are sitting there and decide they require a bowl of BC weed...BIG MISTAKE. Turns out smoking up in a hot Sauna is possibly not the wisest of moves. Saying that they are smoking pot drunk so wise moves were never on the cards really were they. And the this line came out of my little brothers mouth. A pure George classic in fact it is so good it needs to be a line in some American Pie style movie:
" Dudes do you realize we are hot boxing ....in a HOT BOX?????!!!"
Deadly serious he said this. I had to leave as I was choking on my own laughter at this point. Sheer and pure genius as far as I am concerned.
psst...your giggling or at least chuckling aren't you ??
Right Rant time:
ITS FREAKIN BLOODY ASS CHILLINGLY COLD!!! It is August in case you forgot and it is cold. So pissed about this damn weather. Woke up in the middle of the night last night unable to feel my arm due to fact that it was actually completely numb!! Need Mason back at least arms were taken care of then .....
Music time: I have fallen in love with music again. I am serious when I say I have not been listening to music almost at all for the last half year. I am not sure why just was not for some reason. Maybe partly because I was missing the British music scene so much. Anyway having Mason here did for some reason through me right back into my love of great tunes and music. It threw me back into the love of music for moments that it suits.
So this is my current list of addictions and trust me they are all over the damn board just so you know:
Tiesto New Album : I adore this album it is my music for driving into work sometimes. There is something about sunrise and letting the beats and sounds of his music just literally wash over me. Best tracks: 1 2 3 and 11 love 11
Sam Roberts: Firstly the man is Canadian so he rocks no matter what. My little Bro George introduced me to him when I came back. I bought the older album he did with the Taj mahal track on it and its my Sunday afternoon rocking to my own beat music. Best track : 1 7 well actually the whole damn album !!
and now for my biggest music addiction
The Fray: This album makes me cry every single song does it. It is the song writing that does it for me. These boys can write good old fashion songs. Songs with meaning and heart. When they sing these tunes you know they mean every word. You know every word is really and means something to them. I cry everytime. Other drivers look at the funny singing crying lady every day lol lol. Best tracks are 1 2 and 3. Track 1 " she is " because it is for guys (
and girls) who do not realize that "the" one is right infront of them that as they say " she is everything I need that I never knew I wanted" I know that feeling. Track 2 "Over my Head" because it is about wanting to know the truth about life and love and simply put being in over your head and having her in your mind head and soul constantly
Finally the one that has me crying all the time "How to save a life" . It is possibly the most meaningful peaceful and gut wrenching songs I have heard. It makes me relive all past relationships I have had both good and bad. It makes me think of the total fuck ups I have made and the ways I have been totally fucked about. It makes me think of all I have and all I have lost presently in a friendship and past in losing my dad. I reccomend you buy this album. Chose a sunny day not a dark day and sit down and listen to it through to the end. It is simply one of the best albums I have purchased. Some would call it slit your wrist music. I call it music that makes you think and that is rare
Finally Affairs of the Heart:
I am still utterly heartbroken...no change there people ..Heartbroken.......
Well at least chuckle out loud ok.
So first a babble:
Best ever Funny Moment of Trip to Saltspring:
Picture this Three grown boys sitting in a Sauna. They have just taken a naked dive at 2 in the morning in the ocean...needless to say they are cold hence the sauna. There is a lot of booze involved and pot. Boys are sitting there and decide they require a bowl of BC weed...BIG MISTAKE. Turns out smoking up in a hot Sauna is possibly not the wisest of moves. Saying that they are smoking pot drunk so wise moves were never on the cards really were they. And the this line came out of my little brothers mouth. A pure George classic in fact it is so good it needs to be a line in some American Pie style movie:
" Dudes do you realize we are hot boxing ....in a HOT BOX?????!!!"
Deadly serious he said this. I had to leave as I was choking on my own laughter at this point. Sheer and pure genius as far as I am concerned.
psst...your giggling or at least chuckling aren't you ??
Right Rant time:
ITS FREAKIN BLOODY ASS CHILLINGLY COLD!!! It is August in case you forgot and it is cold. So pissed about this damn weather. Woke up in the middle of the night last night unable to feel my arm due to fact that it was actually completely numb!! Need Mason back at least arms were taken care of then .....
Music time: I have fallen in love with music again. I am serious when I say I have not been listening to music almost at all for the last half year. I am not sure why just was not for some reason. Maybe partly because I was missing the British music scene so much. Anyway having Mason here did for some reason through me right back into my love of great tunes and music. It threw me back into the love of music for moments that it suits.
So this is my current list of addictions and trust me they are all over the damn board just so you know:
Tiesto New Album : I adore this album it is my music for driving into work sometimes. There is something about sunrise and letting the beats and sounds of his music just literally wash over me. Best tracks: 1 2 3 and 11 love 11
Sam Roberts: Firstly the man is Canadian so he rocks no matter what. My little Bro George introduced me to him when I came back. I bought the older album he did with the Taj mahal track on it and its my Sunday afternoon rocking to my own beat music. Best track : 1 7 well actually the whole damn album !!
and now for my biggest music addiction
The Fray: This album makes me cry every single song does it. It is the song writing that does it for me. These boys can write good old fashion songs. Songs with meaning and heart. When they sing these tunes you know they mean every word. You know every word is really and means something to them. I cry everytime. Other drivers look at the funny singing crying lady every day lol lol. Best tracks are 1 2 and 3. Track 1 " she is " because it is for guys (
and girls) who do not realize that "the" one is right infront of them that as they say " she is everything I need that I never knew I wanted" I know that feeling. Track 2 "Over my Head" because it is about wanting to know the truth about life and love and simply put being in over your head and having her in your mind head and soul constantly
Finally the one that has me crying all the time "How to save a life" . It is possibly the most meaningful peaceful and gut wrenching songs I have heard. It makes me relive all past relationships I have had both good and bad. It makes me think of the total fuck ups I have made and the ways I have been totally fucked about. It makes me think of all I have and all I have lost presently in a friendship and past in losing my dad. I reccomend you buy this album. Chose a sunny day not a dark day and sit down and listen to it through to the end. It is simply one of the best albums I have purchased. Some would call it slit your wrist music. I call it music that makes you think and that is rare
Finally Affairs of the Heart:
I am still utterly heartbroken...no change there people ..Heartbroken.......
Monday, August 20, 2007
If you Love Something and Let it Go .....
Have you ever figured out after the fact that you love someone and it is possibly to late? I have.
I have however the belief that all things happen for a reason. I am also of the belief that if you do let someone you love go then eventually they will come back to you in one form or another.
I am generally not a overly sentimental person. I tend to steam roll over most things when concerning affairs of the heart. I suppose it is my way of dealing with being or potenially being hurt or destroyed. I am not very good at dealing with the not so nice aspects of life. I am like bird sticking her head in the sand praying things go away. This time I have realized I cannot deal with things like this.
Do I tell people from now on and forever how I feel about them? Do I pour my heart out or do I keep that brick wall up and again pray for the best? I do not honestly know the answer to that yet.
I do know that I still have a heart I still have feelings and I can still love endlessly if I let myself. One thing I will attempt not to do is drown in saddness and self pity. If things are meant to be then things will happen for me and if they do not then that is life and fate.
So yes maybe I do believe in the old saying of
" If you love something let it go. If it loves you it will return"
Just maybe that will happen to me ...who knows
I have however the belief that all things happen for a reason. I am also of the belief that if you do let someone you love go then eventually they will come back to you in one form or another.
I am generally not a overly sentimental person. I tend to steam roll over most things when concerning affairs of the heart. I suppose it is my way of dealing with being or potenially being hurt or destroyed. I am not very good at dealing with the not so nice aspects of life. I am like bird sticking her head in the sand praying things go away. This time I have realized I cannot deal with things like this.
Do I tell people from now on and forever how I feel about them? Do I pour my heart out or do I keep that brick wall up and again pray for the best? I do not honestly know the answer to that yet.
I do know that I still have a heart I still have feelings and I can still love endlessly if I let myself. One thing I will attempt not to do is drown in saddness and self pity. If things are meant to be then things will happen for me and if they do not then that is life and fate.
So yes maybe I do believe in the old saying of
" If you love something let it go. If it loves you it will return"
Just maybe that will happen to me ...who knows
Off To London !
Thats right folks I am off to London...not for good. But for something I need to do. My heart is telling me that I need to go over there and re visit the last 6 years of my life in the UK.
But this time I am not going alone and well frankly not for 6 years ! Obnly for 10 days. I am taking one of my oldest and closest friends, Aron, to my country of love.
We are going for Easter. I found the most unreal penthouse right on the embankment of the Thames in Westminster. It is a unreal deal of 1400 for 9 days! the place is stunning.
I will not deny I am beyond excited about this trip and I could not think of a better person to travel with then Aron. I have known her all my life since the age of 3. We had not spoken in 10 years and when we started up again it felt as though it had only been 10hrs !!
So London watch out baby here we come !!!
But this time I am not going alone and well frankly not for 6 years ! Obnly for 10 days. I am taking one of my oldest and closest friends, Aron, to my country of love.
We are going for Easter. I found the most unreal penthouse right on the embankment of the Thames in Westminster. It is a unreal deal of 1400 for 9 days! the place is stunning.
I will not deny I am beyond excited about this trip and I could not think of a better person to travel with then Aron. I have known her all my life since the age of 3. We had not spoken in 10 years and when we started up again it felt as though it had only been 10hrs !!
So London watch out baby here we come !!!
Sunday, August 19, 2007
That Lost Feeling
So now for the downer post.
This holiday has awakened something in me that I had forgotten about anf forgot I possessed. I need someone in my life. I will willingly admit that I was so wrong when I said that I like being single....I do not like that feeling.
I potentially fell for my best friend...HARD ! But you know what its a good thing as it did me good. All we did has in no way destroyed or changed our friendship I am thinking it actually made it that much stronger.
But now that my house is empty without the sarcastic and witty snips coming out of his mouth I feel so lost. It was never in the 6 years of knowing him my intent for this to happen and evenwhen it began I was very very resitent thinking it would only end in tears. In a way it did but not bad tears all good ones.
I am not so niave to believe that it would go anywhere. Firstly there is a entire ocean between us and secondly we are at completely different places in our lives. But he knows I am sure that I love him more then he can imagine and I would never stop and thats more then enough for me.
Leaving the airport gate yesterday was likely one of the hardest most heart wrenching things i had to do but you know what the key words are that I had to do it. I was ot a bubbling girl wailing. I had one break of very small tears pulled myself together and drove home. I drove home knowing I can be wanted and loved. I drove home knowing I had to change things in my life. I have to stop closing myself off to all possiblities.
So thank you Mase for teaching me that and so much more
Luv ya !
This holiday has awakened something in me that I had forgotten about anf forgot I possessed. I need someone in my life. I will willingly admit that I was so wrong when I said that I like being single....I do not like that feeling.
I potentially fell for my best friend...HARD ! But you know what its a good thing as it did me good. All we did has in no way destroyed or changed our friendship I am thinking it actually made it that much stronger.
But now that my house is empty without the sarcastic and witty snips coming out of his mouth I feel so lost. It was never in the 6 years of knowing him my intent for this to happen and evenwhen it began I was very very resitent thinking it would only end in tears. In a way it did but not bad tears all good ones.
I am not so niave to believe that it would go anywhere. Firstly there is a entire ocean between us and secondly we are at completely different places in our lives. But he knows I am sure that I love him more then he can imagine and I would never stop and thats more then enough for me.
Leaving the airport gate yesterday was likely one of the hardest most heart wrenching things i had to do but you know what the key words are that I had to do it. I was ot a bubbling girl wailing. I had one break of very small tears pulled myself together and drove home. I drove home knowing I can be wanted and loved. I drove home knowing I had to change things in my life. I have to stop closing myself off to all possiblities.
So thank you Mase for teaching me that and so much more
Luv ya !
What I Did On My Summer Holidays
So I am back all ( yeah there are like 2 of you that actually read and even then no one comments. But the blog helps in keeping my sanity sometimes ) I am posting twice today a happy happy post and a slightly down post. So getting the happy one done first ...like to see you all flop in depression when you come off the high of a happy one lol )
I will be writing regularly now as think I really need to so I can get things off my chest and well just sound off.
So on with the happy happy post all. My best friend in the world has been over here from Peterborough for the last 3 weeks and I can safely say that they were some of the best 3 weeks of my life. We took him to our house on the west coast on Saltspring island. He fell in love with it. I am fairly sure he did not want to leave. Plus the trip made me fall in love with Saltspring all over again. See this is the place where mum will retire to when she sells the house here in Alberta. It pains me to think about the house being sold but after spending time on the island the pain slightly eased up.
So I am going to attach pics for you all to see:
I will be writing regularly now as think I really need to so I can get things off my chest and well just sound off.
So on with the happy happy post all. My best friend in the world has been over here from Peterborough for the last 3 weeks and I can safely say that they were some of the best 3 weeks of my life. We took him to our house on the west coast on Saltspring island. He fell in love with it. I am fairly sure he did not want to leave. Plus the trip made me fall in love with Saltspring all over again. See this is the place where mum will retire to when she sells the house here in Alberta. It pains me to think about the house being sold but after spending time on the island the pain slightly eased up.
So I am going to attach pics for you all to see:
Our beach at sunset. love it here very pretty and calm
We took a seaplane to Vancouver sooo cool 
Mase giving evils to yet another pic ! 
"i cush your head" canadians will get this from kids in the hall
Bro George and friend Allan stargazing on beach 
The top of Mt. Maxwell looking out over Gulf Islands
The entire group of us on a night out together
Monday, July 30, 2007
My Recent Hiatus ...Ok Laziness I am a big Liar !
My apologies for my shear laziness, and that’s what it has been for the most part if very truthful!! I am well not caught a deadly disease, not lost a limb or even come close to one. Would love to say absence has been due to a mad new relationship ….yeah seriously its not been just in case you were wondering. Mainly life has just got in the way.
So here is a update on life recently.
Firstly almost all dental work is now done I am finished with Doctor Death for the year ! I was put to sleep 3 weeks ago and they kindly did 8 fillings for me. I stand by the thought that you have to be a sick individual to want to be a dentist I mean come on so so not normal as far as I am concerned !
Right work is good but incrediably slow. We are lucky though we have pretty much free rein over the internet and so needless to say I am soooo caught up on all world events, wars and gossip I am a walking talking news station now ! lol
Home life is good. I moved into the massive newly decorated downstairs bedroom! Now this may seem nothing to be excited about but look at it this way. First off it is the biggest room I have had in 6 years I am sprawled across a massive room with a new massive bed !! Secondly and more importantly it is in the basement. This is good as it has been consitently above 30 degrees for the month of July and HUMID!! I am never hot down here it rocks beyond words people ! I am happy lady as mum made rasberry jam today. It evoked such strong childhood memories it was kinda like being on a acid trip ! All berries were picked by me in the scorching heat and so I am safe in the knowledge that if there were every a nuclear war I would have masses of rasberry jam to live off…hmmmm jam
I am riding almost every day now and fallen completely in love with it again and with the horse I am riding, Thunder. I want to buy my own pony asap but I am being practical and logical about this and holding off..plus I still like buying shoes and handbags WAY to much to give it up. So yes riding has given me thighs of steel and legs of iron again !! YEAH !! that’s highly attractive isn’t it ! lol
I am off to Saltspring island for summer holidays on Thursday. This is doubly good because my best friend in the world will be landing from the UK Wednesday. I cannot describe to you how excited Mason is bout it all and how child like he sounds it is all rather sweet. So I we will be taking float planes, going to Vancouver, visiting Victoria and generally doing all things touristy as well as drinoing swimming and RELAXIN ! Expect loads of pics to appear of course.
Right that’s it my life for the last oh month or so. Sorry its not more exciting. Will attempt to do some incrediably stupid shit and that way I can post about it for you all !! lol lol
So here is a update on life recently.
Firstly almost all dental work is now done I am finished with Doctor Death for the year ! I was put to sleep 3 weeks ago and they kindly did 8 fillings for me. I stand by the thought that you have to be a sick individual to want to be a dentist I mean come on so so not normal as far as I am concerned !
Right work is good but incrediably slow. We are lucky though we have pretty much free rein over the internet and so needless to say I am soooo caught up on all world events, wars and gossip I am a walking talking news station now ! lol
Home life is good. I moved into the massive newly decorated downstairs bedroom! Now this may seem nothing to be excited about but look at it this way. First off it is the biggest room I have had in 6 years I am sprawled across a massive room with a new massive bed !! Secondly and more importantly it is in the basement. This is good as it has been consitently above 30 degrees for the month of July and HUMID!! I am never hot down here it rocks beyond words people ! I am happy lady as mum made rasberry jam today. It evoked such strong childhood memories it was kinda like being on a acid trip ! All berries were picked by me in the scorching heat and so I am safe in the knowledge that if there were every a nuclear war I would have masses of rasberry jam to live off…hmmmm jam
I am riding almost every day now and fallen completely in love with it again and with the horse I am riding, Thunder. I want to buy my own pony asap but I am being practical and logical about this and holding off..plus I still like buying shoes and handbags WAY to much to give it up. So yes riding has given me thighs of steel and legs of iron again !! YEAH !! that’s highly attractive isn’t it ! lol
I am off to Saltspring island for summer holidays on Thursday. This is doubly good because my best friend in the world will be landing from the UK Wednesday. I cannot describe to you how excited Mason is bout it all and how child like he sounds it is all rather sweet. So I we will be taking float planes, going to Vancouver, visiting Victoria and generally doing all things touristy as well as drinoing swimming and RELAXIN ! Expect loads of pics to appear of course.
Right that’s it my life for the last oh month or so. Sorry its not more exciting. Will attempt to do some incrediably stupid shit and that way I can post about it for you all !! lol lol
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Damn Work Firewall !!!
So there is nothing more iritating then a firwall at work on the computer systems !! I have been aliviating my boredom by emailing someone I met through my dating thing.,......my day was flying YES ! then it happened
Apperantely there were bad words in the last message he sent me. I had a vague recollection of his email address so have sent a random email to someone who is likely not him so that should gain a very interesting response back.
Saying that I suppose I cannot complain toooo much as work for some reason allows us on : Facebook, Eharmoney, TMZ, Blogs. But for unknown reasons it does not allow me on Neighbours ( australina soap opera ..yes thats sad) so they must be socially inacceptable of some sort who knows and hotmail
Now my day has ground to a almighty halt :-( ....whats a girl to do now?)
Apperantely there were bad words in the last message he sent me. I had a vague recollection of his email address so have sent a random email to someone who is likely not him so that should gain a very interesting response back.
Saying that I suppose I cannot complain toooo much as work for some reason allows us on : Facebook, Eharmoney, TMZ, Blogs. But for unknown reasons it does not allow me on Neighbours ( australina soap opera ..yes thats sad) so they must be socially inacceptable of some sort who knows and hotmail
Now my day has ground to a almighty halt :-( ....whats a girl to do now?)
Friday, June 22, 2007
General Friday Ramble - No Point Just a Ramble
Ok a multi topic post today as have all sorts to write about ....yeah right.
First off ( to scare Ms Emma in Toronto even more from the dentist ! ) had my appointment with the second dentist yesterday. Some good news and a whole lot of bad shit. The good news is that I do not need a Root Canal ...Can I hear a shout for joy from everyone please?! The bad news is as stated shit bad. The 7 fillings and the sleep drugs they will be giving me will cost me a massive 1500.00 !!! Which of course will bring me up to my max amount for claiming for the year. So not cool but it has to be done. The dentist however was a lovely guy and one of the few that made me feel less nervous then I normally do.
Secondly. Came back into work this morning and was presented with a wicked Friday treat. I won the company check pool....AGAIN !! 330.00 bucks in my pocket thank you very much.
Thirdly. I have already put the money to good use. I am going to get my hair cut ..FINALLY . Mainly getting it cut due to the fact that I have a fringe going on like a English Sheepdog. I actually cannot see half the time. So I am very excited about that , yes I know it is not that big a dea but it makes me happy ok !
Ok I am now offically hating being single. Yes thats right me, Louisa is stating she hates being single. The girl who loves her alone time and not answering to someone wants a god damn bloody boyfriend ! ok that is so out of my system now. But seriously what is so wrong with me that I cannot get a proper boyfriend like other girls my age. They all seem to snap their bony little fingers and out pops a boy by their side dammit soooo not fair. Ok now it truly is out of my system I feel better.
Ramble and Rant is now done
First off ( to scare Ms Emma in Toronto even more from the dentist ! ) had my appointment with the second dentist yesterday. Some good news and a whole lot of bad shit. The good news is that I do not need a Root Canal ...Can I hear a shout for joy from everyone please?! The bad news is as stated shit bad. The 7 fillings and the sleep drugs they will be giving me will cost me a massive 1500.00 !!! Which of course will bring me up to my max amount for claiming for the year. So not cool but it has to be done. The dentist however was a lovely guy and one of the few that made me feel less nervous then I normally do.
Secondly. Came back into work this morning and was presented with a wicked Friday treat. I won the company check pool....AGAIN !! 330.00 bucks in my pocket thank you very much.
Thirdly. I have already put the money to good use. I am going to get my hair cut ..FINALLY . Mainly getting it cut due to the fact that I have a fringe going on like a English Sheepdog. I actually cannot see half the time. So I am very excited about that , yes I know it is not that big a dea but it makes me happy ok !
Ok I am now offically hating being single. Yes thats right me, Louisa is stating she hates being single. The girl who loves her alone time and not answering to someone wants a god damn bloody boyfriend ! ok that is so out of my system now. But seriously what is so wrong with me that I cannot get a proper boyfriend like other girls my age. They all seem to snap their bony little fingers and out pops a boy by their side dammit soooo not fair. Ok now it truly is out of my system I feel better.
Ramble and Rant is now done
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Dentist AKA Doctor Death
So I had my first of what was to be many dental visits yesterday…….IT WAS TERRIBLE !!!
I am not sure if I have ever mentioned this but I am shit scared of dentist.
I have this theory that a sick sick individual wants to become a dentist. I mean seriously what posses a person to think “hmmm I want to be a dentist, the person people are most terrified of. Yep a dentist I will be” SICK
So it was only a little filling and it was not even a new one just replacing an old one. I was in tears before I had even set foot in the office. I vibrated my way to the evil looking chair and continued to blub like a 3 year old. They were very very good to me and talked me through the whole thing. I am someone who has to see visually every single implement that is going to be shoved in my mouth (in fact I am like that with most things put in my mouth!)
Tell you what I would be good in a war situation. No damn way a bullet is touching me I tell you. I was like “ catch me if you “ or “ come one I dare ya to stick that in my mouth “ I vibrated wiggled, flinched and twitched my way to the point that the chair was rattling….then it happened …. Well 2 things happened. Firstly the dentist actually yelled at me (could not blame the guy) “Louisa if you do not stop moving I will stop midway and will not continue” and then an even worse thing happened….. My worst fear….not enough freezing!! . At first I thought I was just dreaming it. So I asked them to stop (no asking involved just a whole lot of hand movements and “ hmmmmfuucckk…nowwww” I said I was not sure if I could feel it or not. So I asked them to start again...YEP I FELT IT! So they stuck me again.
So I was frozen on the right side from 9:30 till 4:00. I drooled looked like a stroke victim and had serious problem with smoking…could not grip it in my mouth.
When I finished they said I did a good job but it was the last one. They have deemed that I am far to edgy and I am going to a special dentist to have 6 more refillings and one major root canal…all at once ! And all this will be done while I am asleep oh yeah guys I am being knocked out stone cold for this as there is a snowballs chance in hell I am going through that shit again !! FUCK IT I will pay the extra for the sleepy medicine drugs!!
I am not sure if I have ever mentioned this but I am shit scared of dentist.
I have this theory that a sick sick individual wants to become a dentist. I mean seriously what posses a person to think “hmmm I want to be a dentist, the person people are most terrified of. Yep a dentist I will be” SICK
So it was only a little filling and it was not even a new one just replacing an old one. I was in tears before I had even set foot in the office. I vibrated my way to the evil looking chair and continued to blub like a 3 year old. They were very very good to me and talked me through the whole thing. I am someone who has to see visually every single implement that is going to be shoved in my mouth (in fact I am like that with most things put in my mouth!)
Tell you what I would be good in a war situation. No damn way a bullet is touching me I tell you. I was like “ catch me if you “ or “ come one I dare ya to stick that in my mouth “ I vibrated wiggled, flinched and twitched my way to the point that the chair was rattling….then it happened …. Well 2 things happened. Firstly the dentist actually yelled at me (could not blame the guy) “Louisa if you do not stop moving I will stop midway and will not continue” and then an even worse thing happened….. My worst fear….not enough freezing!! . At first I thought I was just dreaming it. So I asked them to stop (no asking involved just a whole lot of hand movements and “ hmmmmfuucckk…nowwww” I said I was not sure if I could feel it or not. So I asked them to start again...YEP I FELT IT! So they stuck me again.
So I was frozen on the right side from 9:30 till 4:00. I drooled looked like a stroke victim and had serious problem with smoking…could not grip it in my mouth.
When I finished they said I did a good job but it was the last one. They have deemed that I am far to edgy and I am going to a special dentist to have 6 more refillings and one major root canal…all at once ! And all this will be done while I am asleep oh yeah guys I am being knocked out stone cold for this as there is a snowballs chance in hell I am going through that shit again !! FUCK IT I will pay the extra for the sleepy medicine drugs!!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Warning: I am getting Political Here..It may Not Make Sense
So I have been following what has been going on with Hammas and Fata. For as long as I can remember there has been some sort of internal war going on in the middle east. So it has got to the point that I have actually completely tuned out and lost sympathy for them all.
The latest clash over the last month though did catch my attention. I want to get this straight the public voted in Hammas !!! They chose them and now they are pissed off. Its not like they did not know what Hammas was like, what their ideology was or their past. They put them in that postion they voted that group in. Call me stupid but you vote them in and then you change your minds ??? bit stupid.
But this is what really got me and the main point of my political rant ( my sister is much better at these rants ) Right so Hammas has over thrown Fata. During the week they were throwing Fata party members over the ledges of buildings, they ransacked the Fata offices and then they rounded them up. Marched them out onto the streets. THEN shot them execution style. So let me ask you this? That would be a pretty clear sign to me that they do not like Fata.
So inlight of that this is what they have said as of last night. " we are willing to work together with Fata" Ok again call me stupid but if you had been thrown off a building chased down streets and then shot execution style would you want to work with them ?? Somehow I think not.
Its the lesser of two evils really Hammas who is religion and Islamist all the way and extremist in everylight or who mass who is the lesser by being well just secular.
The latest clash over the last month though did catch my attention. I want to get this straight the public voted in Hammas !!! They chose them and now they are pissed off. Its not like they did not know what Hammas was like, what their ideology was or their past. They put them in that postion they voted that group in. Call me stupid but you vote them in and then you change your minds ??? bit stupid.
But this is what really got me and the main point of my political rant ( my sister is much better at these rants ) Right so Hammas has over thrown Fata. During the week they were throwing Fata party members over the ledges of buildings, they ransacked the Fata offices and then they rounded them up. Marched them out onto the streets. THEN shot them execution style. So let me ask you this? That would be a pretty clear sign to me that they do not like Fata.
So inlight of that this is what they have said as of last night. " we are willing to work together with Fata" Ok again call me stupid but if you had been thrown off a building chased down streets and then shot execution style would you want to work with them ?? Somehow I think not.
Its the lesser of two evils really Hammas who is religion and Islamist all the way and extremist in everylight or who mass who is the lesser by being well just secular.
Friday, June 15, 2007
A Little Friday Funny for You All !!
Breakfast at Tim Hortons
Canada vs. USA
A Canadian man was having coffee and croissants with butter and jam in a Tim Horton's, when an American man, chewing gum, sat down next to him.
The Canadian man ignored the American, who, nevertheless started up a conversation.
The American snapped his gum and said, "You Canadian folk eat the whole bread?" "Of course." The American blew a huge bubble. "We don't. In the States, we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a big container, recycle them, transform them into croissants and sell them to Canada."
The American had a smirk on his face. The Canadian listened in silence.
The American persisted. "Do ya eat jelly with the bread?"
Sighing, the Canadian replied, "Of course."
Cracking his gum between his teeth, the American said, "We don't. In the States, we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds and leftovers in container, recycle them, transform them into jam and sell it to Canada."
The Canadian then asked, "Do you have sex in the States?"
The American smiled and said, "Why, of course we do."
The Canadian leaned closer to him and asked, "And what to you do with the condoms once you've used them?"
"We throw them away, of course," said the American.
Now it was the Canadian's turn to smile. "We don't. In Canada, we put them in a container, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum, and sell them to the United States."
Ain't it great to be CANADIAN.
Canada vs. USA
A Canadian man was having coffee and croissants with butter and jam in a Tim Horton's, when an American man, chewing gum, sat down next to him.
The Canadian man ignored the American, who, nevertheless started up a conversation.
The American snapped his gum and said, "You Canadian folk eat the whole bread?" "Of course." The American blew a huge bubble. "We don't. In the States, we only eat what's inside. The crusts we collect in a big container, recycle them, transform them into croissants and sell them to Canada."
The American had a smirk on his face. The Canadian listened in silence.
The American persisted. "Do ya eat jelly with the bread?"
Sighing, the Canadian replied, "Of course."
Cracking his gum between his teeth, the American said, "We don't. In the States, we eat fresh fruit for breakfast, then we put all the peels, seeds and leftovers in container, recycle them, transform them into jam and sell it to Canada."
The Canadian then asked, "Do you have sex in the States?"
The American smiled and said, "Why, of course we do."
The Canadian leaned closer to him and asked, "And what to you do with the condoms once you've used them?"
"We throw them away, of course," said the American.
Now it was the Canadian's turn to smile. "We don't. In Canada, we put them in a container, recycle them, melt them down into chewing gum, and sell them to the United States."
Ain't it great to be CANADIAN.
You know it is BAD when Your Mother is concerned about your " Dating Life" or Lack of One
So my mum recently informed me that she was "concerned" about my "social" life which translates to by " Dating" life.
I am a bit of a odd person when it comes to dating. I love having a boyfriend however I dread dread the work you have to put in to finding one. Possibly because I fear rejection. So my simple solution is not to bother. This sounds defeatist but really its not. I do like my life as a single person. I am a solitary creature to begin with. I also do not handle having to " answer" to someone well. I am a feircely independent girl so when it comes to relationships I tend to be distant at times but not in a bad way though.
So I have dated every type of guy: The Cheater - strangely enough my most sucessful relationship that is until the cheating of course
The Mummy's boy: that was just to much for me to handle
The Cheap boy: seriuously every little thing was split right down to when he went to buy our weekly sunday papers. He would request the 85 pence it cost him. I have no issue paying in fact prefer to pay however when it is demanded of me and when the person is as tight fisted as a nuns ass I take issue with that !
The way to nice for his own good: CLINGY is the only word to describe it !! I cannot handle clingy !!
So yeah she brought this up and I thought well I am going to have to sort this situation out. I do not go out bar hopping really plus I would never pick someone up at the bar. I would likely not date anyone from work ( although they are hot and they make a piss load of money ...not that it matters really but its nice) My friend base is limited due to the fact that I have been out of the country for like 6 years so I do not have the base I used to have.
SOOOO I joined up with Eharmoney. Now I chose them because it was not like other dating sites. Basically they put me through barge of questions for my personality test. Then only they see my profile. They match me up with like minded similar people. I am liking it. I have been talking to a few guys and one in particular who seems really nice.
I have not put my picture up as I have this irrational fear that they would run in terror when seeing my pic. It is silly I realize. But due to the fact that I am not a teeny tiny girl, a cheerleader nor a barbie doll I think they will just not bother then...I may be right or wrong on that one who knows.
So I will chat and after a number of emails I will then offer to email a picture through. I have had a few ego dents of them not coming back to me ( WOW that stung) but you know what I am tough girl and big girl. I do not know them from adam so no skin off my nose.
They can make assumptions all they want. Little do they know that I used to BIGGER !! lol anbd that I worked my ass off to lose 85 pounds so thats gotta be good.
So I will keep plugging away at it and who knows something may come of it something may not hard to tell really.
I of course will keep you posted on all future sucesses with my foray into the dreaded dating world ( why cant' I just order a mail order groom?? )
Here as a final note is the picture that I do send when I eventually send it
I actually think it is a lovely picture ...SO THERE YOU SHALLOW NASTY BOYS WHO DO NOT ANSWER BACK ....ONE OF YOU WAS BALDING ANYWAY LOL LOL
Amanda ( georges ex), George my little Bro, ME !! and my lovely mum
I have Been TAGGED !!!
I have been tagged !! I have never been tagged before so you can understand my excitment right now!!! OHHHH I HAVE BEEN TAGGED ......FINALLY !!!
Objects Within One Metre Of You: 1. my strawberry banana yogurt. I was tempted by the glazed donut when the food truck came but stopped myself. 2. my Coffee cup( empty now)3. my tea cup ( full now) yes I have 2 sweperate cups. And yes I managed to find real normal english tea here !!!wooo hooo
First Names of People You Sat Next To At School: oh this will be fun...1. Aron. we went from preschool ( 3 yrs old) to graduation ( 18 years old) together. We are still great friends. 2. Reece. Kindergarden I beat him up and stole the sesame street phone. When we graduated he remembered and bought me a sesame street phone..I still have it...I am 28! 3. Leanne ( evil girl)0 she stabbed me in the back witha pencil so I proceeded to break her knuckles ( seriously...she was evil though !)
Programmes You Won’t Watch 1. you know I will watch anything ....I am square eyed !!
Favourite Trivial Pursuit Categories 1. Entertainment 2. Georgraphy. 3 . Arts and Lit
Superpowers You’d Like To IHave 1. Flying for sure !! 2. The ability to blow evil people up. 3. Mind reading for sure!!
Newspapers, Magazines or Periodicals Read Regularly1. The papers in Canada are SHIT so this is what I read: 1. BBC news online ( rocks) 2. ABC news 9 American news is not news it is just damn funny ) 3. Heat Magazine( now this is british and when I can get it here ( very very rarely I devour it ) soooo anyone who wishes to post me their used heat magazines just let me know ....I AM DESPERATE !
Songs You Dislike: I only have one song I truly despise actually 2. 1. Barney and his stupid songs I will kill that freak one day seriously hate him !!
2. anything by lilly allen. That girl is one nasty dirty piecve of work and I do not like her what so ever nothing nice about her. She is so unclassy and yuck
Blog Posts of Your Own That You’d Recommend. Seriously none of them I really do ramble on and I am fairly sure at present I have 1 devoted reader and that is it. No one comments except for faithful suburban mum oh Emma does as well but she has babies so cannot expect her to comment the women is busy and working ( yes SM has baby to but she works at home plus secretly I think she likes pestering me to write.) I do not think I am all that good a writer what so ever so I can't really reccomend anything. but IF YOU ARE READING CAN YOU AT LEAST COMMENT I AM ATTENTION STARVED HERE PEOPLE !!!
Objects Within One Metre Of You: 1. my strawberry banana yogurt. I was tempted by the glazed donut when the food truck came but stopped myself. 2. my Coffee cup( empty now)3. my tea cup ( full now) yes I have 2 sweperate cups. And yes I managed to find real normal english tea here !!!wooo hooo
First Names of People You Sat Next To At School: oh this will be fun...1. Aron. we went from preschool ( 3 yrs old) to graduation ( 18 years old) together. We are still great friends. 2. Reece. Kindergarden I beat him up and stole the sesame street phone. When we graduated he remembered and bought me a sesame street phone..I still have it...I am 28! 3. Leanne ( evil girl)0 she stabbed me in the back witha pencil so I proceeded to break her knuckles ( seriously...she was evil though !)
Programmes You Won’t Watch 1. you know I will watch anything ....I am square eyed !!
Favourite Trivial Pursuit Categories 1. Entertainment 2. Georgraphy. 3 . Arts and Lit
Superpowers You’d Like To IHave 1. Flying for sure !! 2. The ability to blow evil people up. 3. Mind reading for sure!!
Newspapers, Magazines or Periodicals Read Regularly1. The papers in Canada are SHIT so this is what I read: 1. BBC news online ( rocks) 2. ABC news 9 American news is not news it is just damn funny ) 3. Heat Magazine( now this is british and when I can get it here ( very very rarely I devour it ) soooo anyone who wishes to post me their used heat magazines just let me know ....I AM DESPERATE !
Songs You Dislike: I only have one song I truly despise actually 2. 1. Barney and his stupid songs I will kill that freak one day seriously hate him !!
2. anything by lilly allen. That girl is one nasty dirty piecve of work and I do not like her what so ever nothing nice about her. She is so unclassy and yuck
Blog Posts of Your Own That You’d Recommend. Seriously none of them I really do ramble on and I am fairly sure at present I have 1 devoted reader and that is it. No one comments except for faithful suburban mum oh Emma does as well but she has babies so cannot expect her to comment the women is busy and working ( yes SM has baby to but she works at home plus secretly I think she likes pestering me to write.) I do not think I am all that good a writer what so ever so I can't really reccomend anything. but IF YOU ARE READING CAN YOU AT LEAST COMMENT I AM ATTENTION STARVED HERE PEOPLE !!!
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Oh Sweet Lord this is Beyond Odd and Funny !!!
Have a look at the following
I found it this morning while doing my daily news cruise through the various websites:
http://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory?id=3253988
I found it this morning while doing my daily news cruise through the various websites:
http://abcnews.go.com/US/wireStory?id=3253988
Friday, June 01, 2007
Back in the " Old Country" and into the " Old Way of Life"
So I am a very happy lady right now. I have started to ride again ( horses that is ) and I am soooo happy.
My ass is slightly sore but besides that all is ok. I will admit to being very nervous when I got on to Coco ( I did not name this horse she came with it and I actually feel so sorry for her lol ) but once I gained my feeling back nerves went away and it just felt wicked. So I took some pictures.
Now you can't see it but at this point there is s slight look of terror in my eyes
Not so terror ridden now and amazingly very comfortable !
looking HOT !! lol lol Thunder is the moose int he background. Will be ridding him on Sunday. Please note the height difference between him and little Miss Coco ..... and then pray for my life ha !
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
Cuddly BBC Reporter John Sweeney
Recently a panorama story aired on the crazies in Scientology ( yes this is my belief they are nut jobs as well as it being a cult by the way crazzzziiiesss ! )
Anyway unfortunately Mr Sweeney , the investigating reporter, had a teeny tiny little outburst with one of the guys from " the cult" Now to be fair he did lose it ever so slightly but from what I have gathered he had also pretty much been followed 24/7 by the churchs hired goons....even into the bathroom.
It has been reported on the ABC news website and they have people commenting on it ( most saying that the sceintologists are crazies as well) . The below comment made me laugh out loud. I believe it is one of the funnier things I have read in a little while:
" I took a look at his verbal outburst. His was direct and forceful, but controlled. In some cities, that would be considered a hug. Not necessarily cuddly, but a hug none the less. "
FUNNY !
Anyway unfortunately Mr Sweeney , the investigating reporter, had a teeny tiny little outburst with one of the guys from " the cult" Now to be fair he did lose it ever so slightly but from what I have gathered he had also pretty much been followed 24/7 by the churchs hired goons....even into the bathroom.
It has been reported on the ABC news website and they have people commenting on it ( most saying that the sceintologists are crazies as well) . The below comment made me laugh out loud. I believe it is one of the funnier things I have read in a little while:
" I took a look at his verbal outburst. His was direct and forceful, but controlled. In some cities, that would be considered a hug. Not necessarily cuddly, but a hug none the less. "
FUNNY !
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
Defining Kate Moss's Extra carilcular " Hobbies"
I think that this is one of the best pieces of commenting I have ever seen on a news website about a articale.
There is a great debate going on over here due to the fact that Kate Moss has designed her clothing range to fit only 0 - 6 women ( man she needs to fire her business planner !! they suck)
And someone wrote the following in regards to Miss Moss
"Kate Moss has a modeling career, not a "role modeling" career. Her only job is to wear/design clothes. She has the right to live however she pleases and she is not obligated to live her life for anyone but herself. People use their spare time to engage in numerous types of activities. Maybe you like going to church; she likes doing blow"
Oh lord oh lord I laughed my big fat ass of at that amazingly funny bit of writing and commenting ! SOOOOOOO FUNNY !
There is a great debate going on over here due to the fact that Kate Moss has designed her clothing range to fit only 0 - 6 women ( man she needs to fire her business planner !! they suck)
And someone wrote the following in regards to Miss Moss
"Kate Moss has a modeling career, not a "role modeling" career. Her only job is to wear/design clothes. She has the right to live however she pleases and she is not obligated to live her life for anyone but herself. People use their spare time to engage in numerous types of activities. Maybe you like going to church; she likes doing blow"
Oh lord oh lord I laughed my big fat ass of at that amazingly funny bit of writing and commenting ! SOOOOOOO FUNNY !
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