Apparently not that Important after All

I just received my letter advising me of my pay increase before I tell you what they give me here is the history:
I have worked for this company for 2 years and 2 months I have had a total of a weeks ( 7 days sick ) in that time period. I have come in early and left late. I have taken on extra projects such as the one mentioned below and completed them.

They have given me a amazing 456 pound increase. This works out to after tax each month to £28.00
I can safely say I have never felt so under valued insulted and worthless to a employer as I presently feel. My wish to return to Canada leave this place and never look back has just been reaffirmed ifIi could go right now I would. I would get on a plan and fuck off

Yes I am Important ... I think

I have been given a new mission at work: Go sort out the staff in our office down south ( I will not name where down south as I have never named who I work for for fear of it biting me back in the ass so office down south will be known as TSO = The shit office )

When I was given the mission by my big head cheese boss I was thinking hmm piece of piss this mission : make the staff do their jobs the right way , follow procedures stop cocking up etc.

I was wrong

I have spent two days at the TSO and felt as though everything I said to them was listened to but not complete taken on board. I got the feeling that as I was saying all this vital ( and extremely important ) information they were thinking in their heads ' Ah she leaves tomorrow so does not matter if we do what she says' I noticed this on the first day. When I was in my hotel room that night I thought of a cunning plan to get them to listen ... I would threaten them!! ha ha
So yesterday morning I informed them that over the next week I would be running daily reports and that if I saw any errors I would come down on them like a ton of very angry Canadian bricks . I am now hoping this is going to work but not holding my breath.

Part of the problem is that I am just a normal worker ( non management ) and I am basically going into a office and not only telling other normal workers how to sort themselves out but the office manager. How do I do that without making the situation worse??? Not easy is it ?!

So that is what I am doing for the foreseeable future ( no end date has been given to me ) I will keep you up to date on the boringness of my life at present which I am sure will make for thrilling reads for you all
Will attempt to spice it up but its pretty hard to be honest ha ha !!

My successful Attempts of De- Hermitization

I have had successful social attempts at de-hermitting myself, so proud .... So proud.

On Friday I went out with one of my closest friends Mason. Mason is a true gentlemen a star and a genuinely nice and kind person. He is also slightly off kilter and his wife Emma has the patience of a bloody saint as far as I am concerned!

He is also a brilliant painter. I am still pestering him for a Mason Banks painting and I will get one before ai leave this island ! He is 40 well almost 40 ( so love rubbing int he fact that he is almost 40) so yeah he rocks basically.
We went out to Chorlton and promised each other that we would not get pissed that we would be responsible adults. We were out by 4 and halfway to pissed by half 4 !! However we did not get stupid pissed make a full of yourself drunk. It was lovely have to say was really nice to get out with Mason and talk about some seriously mind altering intelligent stuff ( this intelligent talk only happens once and a while for me as otherwise my brain would explode due to overload of info)

Then Saturday came round. I had made the decsion that I would take it easy as I had overloaded myself with social things on Friday and did not want to push my luck. I went to the gym for the first time in a week ( cold = bad bad breathing = no gym what so ever ! ) I went hell for leather and loved every minute of it !! I miss the gym when I am not there. I actually miss the feeling of pushing myself that little bit further each time. Trying to see if I can do better then the previous visit. And that was what I did on this visit suffered for it mind you but loved it.
I got a message from my great gym buddy Tracey saying come over tonight share a bottle and help me pack for the big move . Was very very tempted to say no but gave myself a shake and thought screw it out you go Lou. Jesus had a great time !!! Went to hers had the bottle and then Tracey suggested that we go to the local social club as Colin her husband was behind the bar and well lets face it was bloody cheap as well.
I met Colins mum ..... I was scared honestly terrified . She reminded me of the mother of the bad guys in 'The Goonies' seriously she was scary !!
So yeah for once I had a active weekend was well chuffed with myself . Drank to much but oh well was worth it.

A Few Things I am Hating Right Now ...

I am hating hayfever !!! i have never had such aweful hayfever as I do now. My head feels like it is going to explode. What makes it worse is that I only just got over the deadly cold. I got this false sense of happiness when the cold cleared off last night. Then I woke up this morning and bang welcome to my world Mr Hayfever!!!

I am hating people who do not get back in touch just do normally it does not bother me because I am one of the worst offenders for not calling people back. I leave my phone on silence all the time so I actually miss all my calls ( I know I am now going to get hate mail from various friends and family about this weird tick of mine ) But yeah people who do not get back to you .... Really fucking me off right now

Yep that's about it for now. To be fair there is a hell of a lot more I am hating at present however to avoid opening the 5th dimension of hell and letting it ALL come out I am restraining myself ( does not happen often just so you know )

Fairly sure I am dying

I have a cold.
I am sure this is gods way of natural selection.
I wish to curl up in the fetal position and die right now.
My customers are all making fun of my nasal like tones right now and have absolutely no sympathy
yep I am going to die because of a cold !!
this truly sucks

Things I miss

I miss being 7 again and playing ( or torturing ) my little brother with my little sister.

I miss the smell of the way your Mum washes your cloths. It does not matter how many times you wash it just like she does with the same washing powder and softener and dryer sheets it is never the same...... Trust me I have tried.

I miss the way your Mum can make a boiled egg and soldiers perfectly. You know with the yoke just runny enough and the soldiers the right length and wicth for optimal dipping experience.

I miss being in school !! When I say school I mean kidergarden and grades 1 2 and 3 . These were the grades when school was cool. When you woke up in the morning a little groggy but you knew it was going to be a wicked day because you were going on a cool field trip to a zoo or it was finger painting day, god I loved finger painting day. Work places should introduce these things to relieve office tension I seriously think it would work.

Because I am single there are things I miss when you are with someone. I miss waking up to another person hogging both sides of the bed ( you curse them at the time but when they are gone you miss it or deep down you know it does not bother you all that much )

I miss getting taken out randomly for no apparent reason other then they want your company and attention at that point in time.
( I do not miss cheap dates and guys the make you split the bill note: yes this has happened to me everyone and no it did not last long at all !!!!! )

I miss making breakfast for another person when they stay over and seeing the smile on their face because they know a lot of thought went into it for them.

I do miss my family when I live so far away from them. They drive me mental most of the time even half way across the world they drive me mental. But that is only a fraction of the time the rest they make me laugh and giggle at the antics they get up to.

I miss goofing off with my little brother. He is a giant shit but he is a giant fun shit !!

And finally I do miss my Dad. Even though it is almost 9 years ( I think ) since the old boy bit it and had the big one it feels like only yesterday to be honest. I miss hearing him yell ' Weezy!!!! ' when I knew I was in a little bit of trouble ( not a lot because he used my nickname )
I miss him saying ' Because is not a answer !!' when we back chatted to him.

So yeah I do miss my Dad a lot.

It's about Bloody Time

Just a quick one. Lee , My friendly neighborhood Blog stalker has finally got his poop in a group and set himself up a blog !!!! hurray !!!!
So if you get a chance drop by and harass him endlessly :-) http://hermitslife.blogspot.com/

Drinking By yourself ...Its funny ...Honestly.....

Yesterday was one of those days that made you think ' Yes I love living in the UK!' It was a amazing 27 degrees above here and I was loooovvvviiiinnnngggg it !! Seriously was amazing full sun the works.
By 11 am our office was saying lets screw working call forward all our phones to our mobiles and piss off to the pub BECAUSE IT WAS SO DAMNED NICE !! ( we didn't by the way , we played catch with George Bush note: see previous posts about GWB)

By the time I actually left work I was in a serious mood for a drink but I acted responsibly and went to the gym ( theory being I need to continue to better myself to look better to possibly find a nice decent looking boyfriend oh yeah and for my health) Afet slogging my brains out and running 6 miles !!! woo hoo for me , I made my way to Asda the time sucking 5th dimension of hell and bought the essentials for Gin and tonic. I have the gin due to my mother leaving 2 full bottles after her last visit ( yes it is a family of drinkers and damn proud ! ) I made my way home and poured myself the biggest drink.

Note to self : Never ever ever drink right after working out ever ! See the blood is already rushing round you super fast add booze to the fast passed blood and bingo you are trollied in a bad bad way !!

I sat on the front step of the buiding catching the last of the sun and blending in with locals of whalley Range as I slowly got happy and merry.

And then it happened........

I got so drunk I made my way into the flat and fell asleep on the couch at 6 pm !!! How bad is that !! I woke up 2 hours later forgot I had not eaten but could not be bothered to cook so I ate 3 yogurt's hmmmm I love yogurt right now. Had 1 cup of coffee and thought hey suns still out will have one more small drink. This was my second error as it was the second round of drinking that put me in the ' I live by myself I am single .... OH MY LORD MY LIFE IS SHIT ! Mode'

So in conclusion do not drink after the gym, do not drink alone, do not have a second round of drinks but do enjoy the sun do have the drink ( only one ) and drink it slowly as well.

Politics .... Yep broaching a subject normally avoided and Left to My little Sister to Deal With

Oh my good lord for the first time in 5 years the political realm of the UK has become interesting to me.

So firstly it turns out that loads of convicted immigrants have been allowed to slip back into British society rather then slapping their thieving killing asses on the first flight back to their own country. How ?!? That is all I have to say on that How!

Secondly Patricia Hewitt announced that the last year was the best year ever for the NHS ... Is the women on crack !!??? How can she say that ?? No answer it was a stupid thing to say ( I have a theory it is her dodgy freaky hair that makes her say these things ) But god love the nurses ! They had a big convention 2 days after the stupid statement and Ms. Hewitt decided in her infinite wisdom to go and talk to these people and tell them to wise up and stop complaining effectively??? So shocked she was not shot on the spot by the rioting nurses ha ha!!

Then the best thing ever happened ! John Prescott ( deputy prime minister) announced he had been having a affair with his diary secretary!! This is a picture of the married cheating bastard. Once you look at the picture you will see why this was so so so funny to find out about:

Do you see why now ????? He is one ugly mofo !!

Even better though was the comment from the fiancee of the women he cheated with : ' I can't believe the person I was going to marry was sleeping with JOHN PRESCOTT!!!!!!!'

Personally if I was that guy ( no I am not a male and nor do I wish to be ) I would seek serious help to figure out where I was going wrong to drive my fiancee to sleep with John Prescott ??

There I have dived as far as I will go into the world of politics ( Be proud of me everyone )

YES ITS FINALLY WORKING !!!!

yes i know there are 2 entries with virtually the same shit in them but they both took time to write so they are both staying there !! so there

So Not Making a Effort !!

Right this morning I spent ages writing out a post about how my sister was concerned about my hermit like habits of late. She then made a sweeping comment about making new friends. The post did not publish !!!!! so I am not making the effort to re type the whole damn freakin thing again. All I have to say is how exactly do I make new friends ?!?!?!?!?! I am usless at that I am actually a withdrawn person around people I do not know I get nervous and edgy I worry that I will say a terminally stupid thing ( this happens to me frequently )

I will say however I do understand the family concern over the hermit lifestyle at present and I will attempt to make a effort to think about making a effort to de - hermit myself promise.


LESBIAN UPDATE :

Either they are both back or one has a new girlfriend and jesus were they making up for lost time last night !! Seriously you would have thought they had been in a nunary for the last 20 years and the end of the world was coming the way they were going. I have no idea how to rectify this situation now. I have already left a note for them a polite nice note. What do I do leave a note reading :

STOP FUCKING !!!!!

not very neighbourly that is it or very polite either ??????

The Need To Get out More

Yes I know I need to get out more !!! I was told last night by my little sister that I need to get out more and make new friends !! It was like being in high school again. Honestly it is not easy when you are 27 to just make ' new friends'

I then started to think how the hell do I make new friends ??? I may come across as a fairly confident person at times but seriously I am not. Really I get nervous around people I do not know, I get edgy in larger crowds. I get the fear inside when in a crowd ' is everyone looking at me thinking , look at her standing there talking to NO ONE !!!! ' So to go out and make new friends is not easy for me at all.

I have found lately that I have become more and more reclusive. This has not been forced upon me. I have just decided sub consciously that I do not want to be social I like to be by myself I like not having to be nice to other people. But then on the other hand when I am alone I start to think ' oh my god my life sucks and I need to do something!!'
Its basically a catch 22 when you think about it.

So as much as I hate to say it or admit it Alex may be right. Maybe I do need to make more new friends. I have absolutely no idea how to do this but yes do need to make some and soon or being a hermit will become a permanent fixture in my damn life !! Any suggestions ???

( apologies for this very random ramble )
Note : Alex do not tell me again how crap my writing has been lately I do realize this it wil lget better I promise !!!

They are Back !!! Or at least One Is

Yes the lesbian (s) are back. Not both though only one of them , the blonde one. So now I have a number of conspiracy theories:
1. The blonde has killed the brunette
2. The brunette has run of with a fellow brunette
3. The brunette was so sick of the blonde and feeling ' a lack of appreciation' she topped herself
4. The fat cat ' Charlie ' clawed her to death as he was jealous and wanted in on the action


further updates to follow

OH MY GOD I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE NOW !

Now I say I need to get out now !! I will soon get so bad that I will have a calendar with X's marking the days off unil I permently leave this over priced tiny little island.

My romantic notions of living in a foreign country are now completely out of my system. I have done what I came to do ( cause mayhem and reek havoc on the UK being two of them )

Honestly if it were at all possible I would actually go home now but alas it is not. I have to pay my car off another year of that, I do need to save some sort of money up to go home which if you know me is slightly impossible.

I have however been doing my homework and research in to the big migration back to the mother land of snow and ice.

I firstly have looked into my cat coming home and how much it will cost and was pleasantly surprised. Basically I have gone on the government website back home and because the UK is on the list of non rabies countries I only need a certificate from a government vet saying Cleo is not a rabid and crazed beast ( I will have to drug him for this as most will think he is rabied ha ha ).
I have also found out that it is not nearly as expensive as I had originally thought to fly him !!!
Air Canada only charge $150 one way so like £75.00 I was expecting at least £200 to £300 so was happy.

Have looked into international movers to ship stuff home and found one that will ship 2 largish boxes for £174.00 which is awfuleful. So yes the ball is rolling now. Also my best friAmandanada has agreed to let me rent a room from her for the last 2 -3 months so that I can sell off everything I want to sell including my bed and that way I do not have to woaboutbotu that eithSo. so leIst i have that to look forward to.

I wadmitmitt that yes I have been slightly depressed of late and have been terribly horribly homesick. I think the word depressed though is a stupid word because I am not depressed slash my wrist pray the world ends depressed. I am just really down and want to go hthat'shats it plain and simply

The Weekend and Updates on the Updates

I would love to one day come on here and post this amazing post about my amazing and totally wicked awesome weekend...... But that is never going to happen as I have decided I am a hermit and I live a sheltered life kinda like a mushroom.

This weekend consisted of the following : Cat waking me up and stupid bastard 6 am on Saturday. At first I thought it was because I had not fed him but turns out there was food water and a clean litter tray. He just wanted attention some what like all males in this world. Went to the gym and flogged myself there. Honestly it was the hardest work out I have ever done no idea why I struggled but christ I did. To top of the uneventful day I placed 8 bets on the grand national race. I had a theory that the more bets I placed the more likely my horse would make it around the 4 mile course and 31 jumps. 3 of the 8 fell at the first fence, their blown out of the water. But I did get extremely excited as I had placed a bet of £1.00 each way on a horse called Inca Trail.Afterr the last jump he was in fourth and I lost it in my living room screaming at the telly. If he placed fourth I would have gotroughlyy 60 pounds !!!!! ........ He placed fith.... I was depressed and vowed never to bet on the ponies again.

The most exciting bit of my weekend was rearranging my bedroom.That'ss right folks I was excited and made up that I had done this.Itt was so nice I just wanted to go to bed then and there.

So there is the weekend ...Itt sucked ...Lifee kinda sucks .....Ohh well


Update on Update Number One :

I am still trying to quit smoking I will be honest and say I have the odd one but I am still trying hard. Work is easy and have no issues there. Driving in the car is not a problem anymore. However being home by myself on weekends particularly is fucking difficult !!! It did not help this weekend that I ran out of my little plastic pockets of heavensmotheredd innicotinee. I attempted to suck the life out of my inhaltor but damn I wanted to kill myself by Sunday night.

Update on the Lesbians :

THE ARE STILL GONE !!!! I HAVE PROPERLY DRIVEN THEM AWAY!! I AM SCARED OF MY OWN POWERS !! Honestly folks there has not been a peep from that flat . I am begining to worryaboutu them now. Maybe my letter hasdrivenn them to a noisy lesbiansuicidee pact maybe they have joined a cult........Orr more logically maybe they are just on holiday ....Noo they have joined the damned cult I know they have ...Alongg with their big fat cat Charlie ( wonder if he is a gay cat ???? )

The Lesbians upstairs

Ok I live in a what I would consider potentially a lovely old converted house. If you look past the grime and years of neglect and forgetfulness there are some lovely old features and bits. For istance the front step is slightly art deco with old tiling in lovely reds and blues in a mosaic pattern. It has been battered and bruised over the years and simply forgotten for what it is. When you go in the front communal hall and look up there is amazing old cornicing the full length of the hall but it is dusty and badly looked after. Generally though I do love where I live and saw the potential of the place when I moved in. What I did not realize was that the walls were paper thing from the cellar right up to the 3rd floor. You can hear everything. And now here is the bit you have all been waiting for ( mainly you dirty old men who see the word lesbian and stand to attention !! ) the lesbians upstairs.

A couple have moved in above me.the are both students extremely polite really lovely girls. At first I did not realize they were a couple. I have to admit thatI had the common misconception that in a lesbian relationship one women is normally more ' butch' looking or to be more polite not as femmine as the other. These girls are both tiny petite gorgeous girls they really are and that is why I did not think they were a couple. ( slpa on the wrist for being narrow minded )

When I first met them I did them the courtesy of making them aware discreetly that the walls were by no means sound proof and anything and everything can be heard here. I said that if I was ever to loud or making to much noisy just let me know would not take offence.

They at first took this subtle warning seriously and were very quiet. 2 weeks ago that all changed. I have come to the conclusion that lesbians have the most active sex life I have ever heard !!!! Seriously at one point it was going on 2 times a night 3 nights in a row. I can hear everything ..... EVERYTHING !!! Even my cat looks up at the ceiling and you can see him thinking in his cat male brain' lucky bitches !!' Honestly I am in awe of thses 2 girls stamina it is unreal.
Then last weekend it took another turn. The had a fight. And by fight I mean full bblown things being thrown screaming yelling name calling ' you do not appreciate me ' fight!! I have to say lesbian couples are no different then straight or probably gay couples when they fight. It was a blazing amazing argument. This made me think ( as I sat on my couch on a Saturday night eating popcorn and watching casuatly ... yep I am a single sad loser I have confirmed it with that statement) that there would be no sex for a bit as they were obviously very angry .... I was wrong. The opposite happened they had make up sex all night Saturday ... Took a break all morning Sunday ..... Took a break then all night Sunday .

two nights ago I had enough I was awake till 2 am listening to the acrobatic accomplishments they were attempting at the time. So yesterday morning I left a note ( not signed so they did not know was me ) saying could you possibly please keep the noise down after 11 pm ... Reasonable request I think ??? Came home last night with fingers crossed. WEll there was a outcome I never expected. THEY LEFT !!!!! Now I am not sure if they have left permently or what as was only spying through my peep hole. They had a number of bags and even more importantly they took there cat.

So yes I have driven the lesbians out of the building and I am worried about what other powers I may possess !!!!

* NOTE

Side Note * apologies for the bad language in below post I was angry !! In fact still am bloody angry !!
So yeah apologies to all :-)

Stop Making fun of My country and take a good Hard look at Your Own you Bastards !!!

As you probably can tell my the header I am a pissed off Canadian!! Seriously I am a raging bundle of anger and general pissed offense !!

Since I have moved to the UK I have constantly heard the same lines from Britons things like ' you colonials were made by the mighty British' and ' You immigrants come over here and steal our jobs and use our social system'

Right lets set the record straight !!! A. ' us colonials' as they like to say were created by the British when they came over the Canada however many years ago. And then they fucked off after a little battle with the the frog bastard French. If they created use and we were so important to them then they should have stayed.... But the they didn't so fuck off and think before eyou say stupid things.
B. I AM NOT A IMMIGRANT!!!! You narrow mi0nded jerks !!! I have been a British citizen since the day I was born. I have every right to be here. And in no way was I taking anyone's job !! The unemployment rate in the UK is not because immigrants take loads of jobs when they come here. It is high because they are lazy bastards !! Because they keep electing a government that will socially assit them if they broke a damn nail. So shut your mouth and stop moaning !!

I am so sick of the narrow minded and frankly extreme racistness of this country. Lets get something straight the British was this great empire that went and raided loads of countries created loads of problems fucked off back to their tiny little island and now wonder why there are loads of depends hanging off them 100 years later. You knob heads !! You created those depends so now deal with it.
You make fun of where I am from but yet we are one of the richest countries n the world. The province I am from ( Alberta named after one of your poxy royals ) has no debt !!!!!! They are making so much money on oil right now they are sending out $400 cheques to every Albertan because they made just to much damned money !!! People need to know that outside of the middle east Alberta ( IN CANADA PEOPLE ) is the biggest oil producer in the world !!!!! Not sure myself what the British are known for other then over charging for their people for gas food houses cars basically everything!

So the point behind my rant is this. Take a good hard look at your own war mongering over priced shitty island before you start making funny of other peoples places of origin. It is narrow minded rude and just pig ignorant to say things about others that you know nothing of!!!!
Also do not get me wrong generally I love living in Britain it has offered me a huge amount of opportunities and experience.

Ramble done. BYE !

Life and The Move oh yeah and smoking too

Life I think works out in funny and mysterious ways not sometimes but all the time !

I never would have thought 12 months ago that I would be saying I am going home. I was thinking about it ( deeply) last night ( I am thinking about anything but fags right now to attempt to kick the dirty habit ... Brain hurts from all the thinking ) anyway deep though about it last night. I suddenly realized that my 20's has been full of seriously life changing things. I left Canada at the beginning of my 20's and at the end of it heading back. Pretty big deal really

But then I start thinking about the practicalities of it all. I cannot stop looking round my flat and thinking ' How the hell am I going to sell all my shit ?!?' Honestly for someone who came over to the UK with 2 suitcases all most 5 years ago , I have amassed a stupid silly amount of shit !! It is really really bad ! So I am now thinking will car boot sale the lot of it or put it all up on Ebay as a job lot highest bid gets the lot. I am a pack rat and this will pain me to do as I love some of my things !!

It got so bad last night that whilst laying in bed I started convincing myself that I could ship my lovely bed over to Canada with me ( no I cannot do this due to fact that it is wrought iron and well would cost me a small nations gross debt ) but yeah by the time I had fallen asleep I had decided I could do this. By the time I woke up this morning slapped on another nicotine patch ( little plastic pockets of heaven ) I came to my senses and realized this was not a possibility. I am already mourning the loss of my bed 18 months in bloody advance !!!!! Bad very very bad !

Otherwise though all is on track for the giant move back home. Sarah ( best mate ) is just as excited and cannot wait to get there either. She got a Canadian tourist video on the Rockies. She text me she was all excited to watch this on Sunday night. I came into work on Monday to a email from her saying : ' lasted 10 minutes into the video and gave up as all the Japanese tourists in it were winding her up ' I replied ' welcome to Canada they are everywhere , get used to it honey !' but otherwise all is full steam a head and lookin good guys !

Smoking : Damn this is hard but determined to do it !! I am still on the patch as stated above. I also look like a child that relies on dummies to keep them happy when I start sucking on the little white inhaler stick thing they gave me as a fake fag. If I could fall asleep with that thing in my mouth sucking away like a newborn I would.

Also as a small side note now : Thank you to the people that read my blog and have left various messages wishing me luck on the smoking and the moving it is really really nice to hear it from you all like Urban Gypsy who has a funny and basically good read website http://theurbangypsy.blogspot.com/ if you get a chance have a read worth it. Plus Joke ( said like yolk then a ' A ' on the end ) found her via dooce and she has left great messages on there as well http://www.forjoke.com/. There are loads others as well. But the powers of work will see what I have spent the last 20 minutes not working but blogging and well lets be honest I am paid to sell cable not blog. Also if I had a inch of computer or web page knowledge in my brain I would blog roll but after a million attempts to set this up and one broken mouse I have decided to give up for my sanity !!!
So yes thank you all very sweet of you ;-)

I QUIT !

Yep have taken the leap, have done the much needed dirty deed ..... I officially have quit smoking today.

I have been to my GP and been given all sorts of things. Currently I have a patch on my arm and wow this shit is like happy juice.... Heaven in a little rubber patch !! Honestly it has made me all light headed and I have had no fag cravings all morning. I have gone from smoking 24 fags a day to having 2 today !!!! How amazing. And when I had the last one I didn't even finish the thing as just was no interested at all.

So proud of myself!!.

Update on the move back to the mother land:
Sarah has done one of those ' will we let you into Canada or are you a lay about non working social sucker ?' She did 2 tests one as if she had a job to go to and she was a god as far as the Canadian goverment was concerned on a big score of 84 and then she was truthful and did one as if she did not have a job to go to but she still managed to scrape through. So things are looking up now.

I am even more excited at the prospect of going home then I ever was. I keep looking round my flat thinking oh my good god I have to sell most of this how in the world will I ?? See I am a pack rat or more like a person that cannot let things go.

I have also tried to sit down and have a serious discussion with the cat , Cleo, about his impending journey ina year and half but for some reason he keeps chasing his own tail and does not seem interested in what I have to say ..... God knows why !

So there you go. I am going to go back to obsessing about my lack of cigarette in my hand and slap on another rubber circle bit of heaven ( the patch )
bye all :-) x